At the risk of being a bit of a downer I'm going to share a little about what I've been feeling again lately. Interesting, I know that it's a roller coaster that I'm on.. climbing to the height of elation just to plummet headlong to the lowest dip and be jerked and yanked round corners that were unforeseen, brought suddenly to a relieved (almost) stop and pulled slowly and steadily toward the peak again.. I want off the ride but as we all know ~ you can't get off until the ride is over.
Prattle, prattle.. blah, blah, blah... I really have nothing worth saying yet I prattle on. When I'm in a valley it is more important than ever that I am daily in the Word, talking with and listening to the one who knows my inmost being. Peak times have me rallied in the Spirit and overflowing with Him. Valley times have me weakly simpering a muddled prayer and hoping that He will be able to speak into my muddled mind. I KNOW the importance of the ride I am on, that there is learning, shaping and witnessing in every moment. So, 'giving it to the Lord' means knowing He is at the controls, throwing my hands up over my head while screaming (sometimes laughing)... and trusting. I'm thankful that he can use a simple vessel to bring Him glory and there is none simpler. I want to bring Him glory.
I think I'm done for the moment and now I'll go wash the breakfast dishes, put a load in the washing machine and run to the grocery store to pick up the ingredients for the heart-shaped pizzas that my husband still wants for Valentine's Day even though the girls aren't here. I'll curl in my curling spot on the couch with my Bible and pray for my family, being reminded once again of my MANY blessings. I'll shed a few quiet, amazed tears as I pray for the newest family member growing strong, safely snugged in it's growing place..
As I reread this I had an epiphany! Can a grammie suffer hormone imbalance because her daughter is pregnant? That's gotta be it. Agh, this family is too close. Way too close.